Hey you! I am so glad to have you with me at this moment. I’m here today based on gut feelings and intuitions. As I say that, FUCK IT! Let’s get into some hard truth and vulnerable feelings with no sense of judgment afterward.. deal?
Life is slow but feels fast at the same time. With the current trajectory of technology and inventions made by the second, we are essentially the future in the present. Who would’ve thought we would have robots taking orders, delivering food, and performing daily human activities in 2024? An outlandish concept, artificial intelligence, is now being used in workspaces and even in SCHOOLS! (SCHOOLS!!) Where were you now when I needed you, like Justin Beiber said! Concepts are constantly changing, and rules that we thought were set in stone are now being washed away with new ink and paper… we can’t even fathom what’s next to come. No one wants to take a second to pause and stop to embrace what we have at this point.
Contrastingly, I feel like God is letting that be my lesson. To be frank (ha), I have separated from most people by my side, including my past lover. (3 weeks no contact, where’s the balloons fr??!) It’s a juxtaposing feeling; I miss and yearn for them, but I am happy with the outcome and know I am better off. I have gone through a cycle of loving and losing people, which unconsciously put me on a defense that “everyone is trash” when encountering new people. I am now a pushing-away professional to the point it’s not even intentional. This is where I give it to God; I must give him his 10s…
I’ve always thought I was depressed and lonely, but it’s nonetheless a mindset thing. I would always feel offended hearing that, but (sorry, not sorry) it’s really the truth! Life is what you make and choose to pay attention to. This is not me saying it’s easy; I’m living proof and still a work in progress. Complaining about your bills, fake friends, cheating boyfriend, abusive family, wack job… what is that going to do?? NOT A F* A THING! (Sorry, God.) You CAN, however, put your energy and attention on what you can control! Stressing about things you can’t control is insanity! Insanity will drive you to do unforsaken things, and we have plenty of examples to follow. (Funny how I said that since Matthew 6:27 literally depicts that if my word isn’t concrete. winks)
I believe God gives angels challenging obstacles to share insight and wisdom. I question myself and wonder how I am still so kind and sweet after everything that has happened?! That’s what my gift is for this planet: to help and to speak. I could let this Earth harden me, but is that what God would want?? NO! He would like me to continue being me, the angel that I am, despite the silly little things that come my way! I know that I am forever good because God is on my side. Who’s better than him?? …Oh, okay!
All in all, I wrote this in about 30 minutes, so if it doesn’t make sense or correlates to you, I apologize! If I could help 1 person, my duty would be fulfilled. Thank you guys for reading, and I’ll see you all again soon. :*
